Guess who's back

... back again. (Sorry, not really an Eminem fan.)

First of all: Happy New Year!

I hope you all had a lovely Christmas, that your New Year's Resolutions have worked out for you so far, and if you're applying to uni this year: Good luck! You're gonna make it!

I haven't poster over the Christmas break, I was back home, I didn't do all that much uni related stuff (except for finishing my essays, but oh well, they're only ever so exciting).

From the looks of it, though, this term isn't going to change all that much from that. I guess the rumour that the first term is only ever to settle in, and the second is when uni really begins is true after all.

I mean, last term I had a plan, almost a schedule I was posting after, but I don't think I will be as well-organised this time.

Because it won't just be my first year of University I'll be finishing, I will also have to be on the look out for modules, a flat and internships I can do next term. (Although "flat" might be a bit ambitious - this is London after all.)

I like to believe I have a pretty good idea what I'm doing, but let's face it, the unknown always makes the bygone troubles look a lot more appealing: Why not do finals again? Or plan my move? I mean, it worked out in the end, didn't it?

But then again, I guess 2015 will as well. It always has somehow, after all.

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." --- Søren Kierkegaard

 

Essays, Essays, Essays

Will you tell me I should just stop posting random blog posts every few days if I start complaining about coursework now?
Probably.

That said, yes, there are essays, and portfolios and case studies; the end of term is in two weeks and there's only ever so much coffee.
And especially in busy times, it's sometimes hard to stay grounded. Or healthy.

And compared to my exam phase last year around that time, this little bit of essay writing that doesn't technically count towards my degree is like riding a pony. (On second thought though... Not like riding a pony. I wouldn't even know how to saddle a pony.)

And on top of all of that, last year I was also worrying about my unit application and how it would be processed and whether my English and my grades would be good enough to get in and... oh well, it was just not a nice time for my parents.

But today I was sitting on the tube and put my "2014" playlist on (yes, I have a playlist that I add favourite songs or meaningful songs of every month to) and I just thought... well, there' actually quite a few things I did this year that I can be proud of.

And because I'm a fan of lists, find one attached:

Things to be proud of 2k14

• Applying to uni all on my own (and getting in!)
• Starring in a student-directed play that we could present in an actual theatre
• Finishing school (although after having my results I really mustn't have worried as much as I did)
• Writing a couple of short stories that don't read to bad
• Getting my best friend to follow her heart. This was also probably the hardest thing I did all year.
• Giving a speech at my graduation ceremony and making people cry. (Well, the last part is not really something to be proud of, I admit that.)
• Realising that some things and people really matter  - and other not at all

And I know that I'm not the most inspiring human being, that my life is always surprisingly normal (but still very precious and special from a first hand experience, believe me), but I hope that maybe doing the same thing, just compiling a small list of things you are proud of, can help you a bit to hold your head up high and face the future a little lighter-hearted. Not all is bad.